After a week long vacation in Malaysia(which is actually my first out -of-the-country travel),I finally had the time to check my dormant blog and read the post of other bloggers that I am following. I was quite surprise to see a greeting from WordPress greeting me a happy 2nd anniversary. I am not sure if I do deserve the trophy image that comes with the greeting nor if my blogging journey is a happy one since I was never a prolific writer. I am not even sure if I should call myself a writer since there were really times that I was just coaxing myself to write. I didn’t even know how this blog is able to exist longer than a year when I am aware that I AM NOT A GOOD WRITER. (I wrote in capitals for emphasis so you know I am aware of it. )You readers might have noticed that writing is not something I do naturally. Sure, I like to write, but I am unlike others whose words just come to them instantly whenever they want to express something,whether in poetic way or a candid formal tone. I grope for words,checking the dictionary from time to time to check myself if I used the right term. I am not also good in English grammar. Sure thing I can write in Filipino but I am worse writer in my language.
To be honest, whenever I read good blogs I feel envious. It’s like admiration and envy are not different things to me anymore , that the margin that differentiates the two words is a very fine one. Envy automatically gnaws at me when I admire a post. There were times too that I feel inspired to write my own post by other good bloggers but in the middle of writing I’ll leave it unfinished thinking my work is as good as crap. Sometimes,I finished it but do not post it for the same reason. I dislike my self for acting like that,but I feel happy of the fact that the aspiration to become a good writer is still in me,and it motivates me to write more so to become better in this craft. For that reason, i cannot simply abandon my blog.
Blogging is about self expression. That is true to me during my first year of blogging. And it remains true today and maybe in the coming years. But as I stay blogging I realize it is also about self improvement in writing and in other ways. I guess that realization and the thought of not leaving my blog despite everything is what makes my second anniversary a happy one. Indeed, this is a Happy Second Anniversary.:-) ..cheers!