Sino ako?

Sino nga ba ako sa paningin ng ibang tao?..Hindi ko alam.

Parang blankong libro na walang nakasulat kaya ni minsan walang nagtangkang buksan ang aking awalang pagkakakilanlan.

Parang ulan na hahanapin kapag naiinitan.

O isang manikang paglalaruan.

Minsan masaya na lang siguro maging mag-isa. Hindi inaalala kung sino ako,sa paningin nila. Baka sakali pang maging tunay na masaya.

Kasi ako ay ako.

Di lang ako anak ng magulang ko o kapatid ng mga kapatid ko.

Hindi lang ako ung guro na mukhang hindi napapagod at mahaba ang pasensya.

Hindi din lang naman ako girlfriend ni ano.

Di yung tinatakbuhan ng kaibigan para hingan ng payo o tulong

Ako lang ako.

Nasasaktan. Napapagod. Naguguluhan.

Kailangan ko din ng pagtanggap ng buong-buo.

Ng suporta at magbibigay ng lakas ng loob.

Ako ay ako.

Gusto kung magpakatoto.

At sa akin sana gano’n di kayo.

So busy me!!

Hello blogosphere!

I have been missing in action lately. I’ve been doing so many things that I almost forgot to do one of the things i love doing. Obviously, that is blogging!!

I promise to write more often than not when I figured out how to balance everything in my life. Meanwhile,here are the things that are keeping me busy:

1. Thinking how to get rich.

I’m twenty-four and I wanted to get rich!! What’s wrong with that? I mean, who doesn’t want anyway? I’ve been thinking of entering into ticketing and loading business or a printing shop. I also been planning to invest in funds BDOs equity fund. I have been reading the blog of Frustrated Billionaire about investing( and I am learning a lot. The problem is I still do not have the risk-taker attitude. Encourage me please!

2. Encampment.

I am the adviser of the Girl Scouts in our school and hell yeah it is so tedious! Just planning the encampment is so mind boggling and physically demanding. Next year I want it out of my responsibilities. Or maybe not? I am enjoying it anyway.

3. Newsletter.

I am the campus paper adviser of our school and I don’t mind reminding my writers of their deadlines and editing their works. I enjoy seeing them improving.


This is ruining my life. I swear!! I want facebook out of my life but always I feel like I cant just get enough of it.


My Mahal is eating most of my time. OMG! And I cant just say no to him. That’s how much I love him.

Teacher’s Desk 101: Katotohanan at Opinyon

Aralin sa Katotohanan at Opinyon kasama ang Grade 8A
Ako: Sabihin kung ang aking pahayag ay katotohanan o opinyon. “Ang isang araw ay binubuo ng 24 oras.”

Sila: Katotohanan!!!

Ako: Si Anne Curtis ay maganda.

Sila: Opinyon

Ako: (pabiro)Si Ma’am Irene ay mas maganda kay Anne Curtis.

Sila: Chismis!..(sabay hagikgikan)

Ako: (Kunwari galit) Pakiulit?

Sila: Kasinungalingan

Ako: Ah ganun.MInus 5 kayong lahat.Ulitin natin,”Si Ma’am Irene ay mas maganda kay Anne Curtis.”


Ang kulit-kulit talaga nila..:))

It’s my first time to receive a bribe for a grade

So she came in the public high school where I am now teaching. She’s in jeans and plain shirt. I recognized immediately that she was my student in a private college where I used to teach.

I assumed she would be complying  her deficiency in my subject so she can have her grade.

In her hands were a completion form and a bill – Philippine peso bill. She handed it to me. I gave it back to her, then signed her completion form with a grade of 70. Whether she gave it to the registrar or not, that I could not answer.

I felt insulted, but I could not blamed her. I knew too well that she learned it from another teacher.


dear marsh,

miss na kita..


gusto ko lang sabihin na, marami ng lalake ang nagpablush sa akin..


ikaw lang ung lalakeng nagpapalipad ng butterflies sa stomach ko…


Dear Marsh,

The seven days start today – the no communication days, the reflection days, the prayer days. What comes after the seven days, is the decision-making.


Our relationship had been pure love, but all throughout, we forgot about respect and trust. We’d been jealous and got to the point of disrespecting ourselves and each other.

I hope after the seven days, we had cultivated the TRUST and RESPECT.

Whether we decide to continue, pause or stop definitely. I hope we respect our decisions. I hope we trust each other still.

So long Marsh! I love you, love you, love you.I love you forever and a day. Keep that in mind.

Keep in mind also that I have waited for you for 24 days. I can still wait for another 24 days if that’s what God plans.





Forever, I will be your YISH.. And you are my greatest love MARSH.

Our Little Infinity

Dear Marsh,

It has been two years since you walked into my life. I can clearly remember you entering the room wearing your varsity jacket, the white one with the ATENEO print at the back. God knows that when I first saw you, I knew right there that you are special to me, like a piece of jigsaw puzzle that  can complete the whole picture.

I admit it. It was and is a love at first sight, but I know to feel that way to you is completely wrong. I’m supposed not to cross the line. You know what I mean..

I know too that you love another girl and you will never notice an old “manang” like me.

I tried not to go near you.Whenever we talk, every word I said, I said with all tactfulness. Every action, I did, I did it with all caution. But everyone noticed it –  the stolen glances, the half smile, the blush and all the blabber about you. People knew it, but all I did was to deny it. I lied to them. I fooled myself, but the more I tried to deny it the more it got obvious. I have never been good at lying.

Silently, in myself though, there is a wish that somehow, you notice it when I get my hair cut, or when my tiny dimples come out as I smile or even when I am wearing earrings or not, but you never did notice them.

First sem and second sem passed, I learned how much intelligent you are. And the evil side of me tried to grab the opportunity of luring you to me. I made you compete in contests and I was your coach but nothing happened. To be honest, I thought I was doing it with good intention, thought it was for your own sake but now looking back I guess I was being a selfish witch back then with a hidden motive.

The day that I completely gave up on you was when I hosted the pageant. I was in gown. Almost everybody adored me that night, but you…you never even glanced at me. I guessed my ego was hurt. Though I don’t groom much, I’m used to being admire by many and you are not one of them.

I wrote your name in the dark sky that night. I used the stars as dots, connected them with an imaginary line I made with my finger. It spelled MARCO. And I vowed to never to notice you again.

Next school year was more exciting.

You and your girlfriend broke that year. I knew it. I saw it in Facebook but I wasn’t a hopeful. Besides, I am beginning to fall in love with another man, who had an eye for fashion and goal-oriented. He is very unlikely you. A complete opposite of you who is so happy-go-lucky and never worries about what other says.

My friend on the other hand is falling for you. She liked you a lot and was never shy to admit it. Both of you had grown closer. I silently listened to her as she chatted about you. Did I felt a tinge of jealousy? Nope,not even a little.

Everything seemed to be in perfect places but in a sudden twist of faith, we grew closer. How and why? I couldn’t tell. And the spark grew back again.

I found myself fighting  against my feelings for you again. It was hard, but I gave in and I finally said I like you on your birthday.

Was it right? Was I wrong? I couldn’t tell that time.

Our feelings for each other grew.

You changed. You become better so my parents can accept you when the time came that we had to tell it to them. You found a job and worked hard. You stopped your vices.

You did it for me and for us. And I was hurting to see you trying your best. I never want you to be your version 2.0. I love the happy Marco,The less serious Marsh. My Marshmallow who never tried to impress others.But I love the new Marco anyway.

You tell me thousand times that you love me more.

But I want to tell you, I love you equally.And I feel like I am dying whenever I thought of you leaving me.

You tell me you’ll love me forever, but always in the horizon there is a warning that our love may come to an end. And I am scared to death that the day will come our little infinity will stop in a moment.

You asked to stop our infinity once. I stopped you. I couldn’t bear it.

But It was like punishing you, because you tried harder, fought harder and get hurt harder.

I am so sorry. I LOVE YOU. And the world knows how much I love you.

I don’t want you being sad because of me, but I don’t want to let you go too.

I am torn between my love for you and my love for my parents.

If only my parents will understand, If only they will know.

Lord knows, I’m dying inside when you are away, but each time I see your face the more I want to fight for this love.

I don’t want to be one of your passing fancy. I want to be “the one” for you. Am I asking for too much?

I hope God gives me my happiness. I pray everything will turn out alright. If it won’t, I swear. I’m might as well bid this world goodbye.


Always think of that.



I am a Middle-Child


And you forget

I am not my older sibling

Nor I am the youngest

You coax me to be like your eldest

“He’s the first,so follow his footsteps.”

You get all thrilled of all his first tastes  of life

When it’s my turn it’s normal, it’s dull

The youngest, he’s loved because he’s last

He gets the freedom

He gets  what he wants

For all the trouble he is forgiven

While my one mistake ruins everything

I am invisible

I’m used to it

You see me when you wanna say I’m worst

Or to compare how I lag behind your favorites

Today I want to lend me your ear

I won’t ask so much, I promise

Let me be just me

Give me some piece of your understanding

Yes,I am a middle-child

But I am still your child

I too deserve special treatment




Disclaimer: I am not a middle-child. I just felt I wanted to write about it.

This is for all the middle-child in the world.This is just a piece of shit, but I hope you liked it.


50 Words: Trust



” For all we know, you’ve been lying to us the whole time!!”


“Don’t explain!You lied! We know!”

“But all of your accusations are wrong..The truth is…”

“We trusted you so much! How could you break it?”

“How would I break it?When you have never trusted me.”